Good ol' Pisces
Most days Horoscopes are vague and lame. Like, "You are wondering about a problem with your lover. If you are single...er, then...you're not! Hooray for Pisces!"
Mine lately have actually been pretty reflective of my feelings.
For example, today I spent the entire day hiding from Chris, Boyfriend, and pretty much everyone. Basically the two of them are silently fighting with eachother and taking their issues out on me. It's so...debilitating to have two people you care about so much turn on eachother. But not actually turn on eachother rather just turn to you and verbally attack the other...but only to you. You're the one absorbing the backlash and the snotty comments. You're the one having to hear one person you love attack another and feel like if you defend them you're picking sides. You feel like you can't say anything more than, "Please. Please don't say that" for fear that they'll feel betrayed.
It ruined my 4th of July, I was determined not to let it ruin today.
Today I shut my cell off (Which either means I'm dead or extremely depressed). I ignored the home phone. I just laid in bed till 2 and rested.
And then I did what I only do when I'm truly, deeply depressed, I read my favorite love story. I read it because when you feel like the people you love can't over look petty issues for your sake...it's really hard to keep believing that they love you back...
When I'm depressed I tend to want to run away. And when there's no where to go, I hide. I hide from my friends, my family even from my own thoughts by becoming so consumed in other places and other people. I'm not proud of that. But I know I do it. I don't hide when people need me just when I need someone. I guess it's too hard to count on people...
But I digress, my horoscope today seemed to reflect some of that. Sometimes Ms. Cleo really does know what the hell she's talking about.
"It may be challenging today to keep your fantasies separate from the facts as the universe presents them. You might even feel as if your dreams are more important than the dreary world around you. For now, don't bother trying to break out of your illusions; if you do, it may be rather discouraging. Enjoy communing with nature or worshipping any way you choose. In just a few days, you will receive landing clearance and will arrive safely back on planet Earth."
Wednesday, July 5, 2006
Mine lately have actually been pretty reflective of my feelings.
For example, today I spent the entire day hiding from Chris, Boyfriend, and pretty much everyone. Basically the two of them are silently fighting with eachother and taking their issues out on me. It's so...debilitating to have two people you care about so much turn on eachother. But not actually turn on eachother rather just turn to you and verbally attack the other...but only to you. You're the one absorbing the backlash and the snotty comments. You're the one having to hear one person you love attack another and feel like if you defend them you're picking sides. You feel like you can't say anything more than, "Please. Please don't say that" for fear that they'll feel betrayed.
It ruined my 4th of July, I was determined not to let it ruin today.
Today I shut my cell off (Which either means I'm dead or extremely depressed). I ignored the home phone. I just laid in bed till 2 and rested.
And then I did what I only do when I'm truly, deeply depressed, I read my favorite love story. I read it because when you feel like the people you love can't over look petty issues for your sake...it's really hard to keep believing that they love you back...
When I'm depressed I tend to want to run away. And when there's no where to go, I hide. I hide from my friends, my family even from my own thoughts by becoming so consumed in other places and other people. I'm not proud of that. But I know I do it. I don't hide when people need me just when I need someone. I guess it's too hard to count on people...
But I digress, my horoscope today seemed to reflect some of that. Sometimes Ms. Cleo really does know what the hell she's talking about.
"It may be challenging today to keep your fantasies separate from the facts as the universe presents them. You might even feel as if your dreams are more important than the dreary world around you. For now, don't bother trying to break out of your illusions; if you do, it may be rather discouraging. Enjoy communing with nature or worshipping any way you choose. In just a few days, you will receive landing clearance and will arrive safely back on planet Earth."
Wednesday, July 5, 2006
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